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Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Waiting and Hoping

Our long wait between appointments is finally almost over. The next ultrasound is only two days away, on Thursday morning.

The good news is that I haven't seen or felt anything out of the ordinary (well, you know, out of the ordinary for a normal person). My symptoms are definitely still around. My sweet husband must feel like his only job in the world right now is keeping me fed! As always, he is taking tremendous care of me and has been making up for my severe lack of energy and voracious appetite by handling most of the housework and all of the cooking. I am so very thankful for him!

The only thing that could be classified as bad news right now is my memory. I wish I could forget about every awful ultrasound that we've ever had. I wish I didn't go into each new appointment with those terrible memories around to make my stomach turn and my heart race. I'm sure my nerves would be around to do that to me anyway. So far I have been doing okay at keeping calm. I haven't had any major freak-out moments and I'm trying really hard not to dwell on the past. It's hard to do, but I'm trying to consider this pregnancy an experience all its own.

In keeping with the "one day at a time" mindset, I've been making it part of my daily routine to thank the Lord for each new day. I know, this is something I should have been doing every day of my life anyway! But it has really helped me to focus on today and try not to worry about the past or about tomorrow. Of course I'm praying for this entire pregnancy from beginning to end, which I hope will be a long time, but thanking God for THIS day and the answered prayer of today alone gives me comfort.

So, for now we are still waiting and hoping. We're thankful for today and hopeful for tomorrow, and praying that each new day will bring us closer to bringing home a happy, healthy baby.

I'm keeping you all in my prayers. If I don't already know from your blogs or from e-mails, please let me know how I can pray for you!

20 comments:

Andi said...

Glad things are going well today and praying for Thursday's ultrasound. You know, I'm not preggers, but I still want to do nothing but sleep and eat!

Jenn said...

I absolutely cannot wait to hear about Thursday's events. Awaiting anxiously.....

Jennifer said...

Glad to hear nothing out of the ordinary for you is going on. Will keep praying that it stays that way!

Connie said...

I so wish I could be there on Thursday. Remember our deal! Love you bunches and bunches. Praying every single day! XOXO

Becky said...

I am and will be praying for you guys! All those symptoms are a very good sign. I am so hopeful for you!

Despite the name of my blog :) I really needed the reminder about a "one day at a time mindset." I really like what you said about thanking God for this day and the answered prayer of this day.

Indy said...

The enemy is so slick isn't he, how he tries to get us to focus on the past so that we miss out on today's blessing. It sounds like you are on the right track, Stacey...you, my friend are running with Christ. Proud of you. =)

Michelle said...

I am waiting and hoping with you! I hope Thursday goes GREAT!

DeniFay said...

So glad that you only have to wait until Thursday, I know this wait has been excruciating, but your faith continues to guide you and inspire others! Praying for you friends, BELIEVEING that good news will continue to roll in for the next 30 something weeks!!!

Andrea said...

You are wise to consider this pregnancy as "an experience of its own" And, even more wise to take one day at a time :) I believe you are mentaly in the right place and that is wonderful. Try to live in the moment and know that we are all here rallying you along!

Send a few prayers up for me and know that I am sending some up for you :) May God continue to wrap his arms around you and comfort you always.

HUGS
Andrea
xoxo

Life In Mazes said...

I am so excited for you and definitely praying hard that you have great news for the next 8+ months!!!

Thanks so much for the birthday wishes! I am so thankful!

Sharon said...

Stacey, I think of you every day and pray for a positive outcome. As someone who has shared your history, I can so relate to your feelings of tremidation and anxiety. I think thats why after my 7th miscarriage we switched to adoption, it just had reached the point where I knew I could never enjoy a pregnancy because of the constant anxiety. Keeping thanking God everyday and putting one foot in front of the other, its all you can do for now!
(((hugs)))

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andreajennine said...

Praying for your ultrasound and for your heart as you wait! In the early months of this pregnancy, I would get so nervous right before every appointment. It helped me to think on Phil. 4:8 - "Whatever is true... whatever is lovely... think on these things." Until each ultrasound or heartbeat check, the lovely truth as far as I knew was that I was pregnant, so I would try to enjoy that truth rather than dwelling on the what-ifs.

Erin said...

Stacey, I'm praying for you and your husband daily. As hard as it is to imagine going through what you have in the past it is even harder to imagine the range of emotions you are feeling right now. Thank you so much for your generous nature in sharing this part of your life and for continuing to pray for others like me. Know that God is using you to reach others and you will be blessed!

Hope in Virginia said...

Let us know how the ultrasound goes. I know this must be an extremely anxious time for you. Praying that you and your husband are comforted and peaceful. One of my favorite songs, that gave me encouragement through the IVF process, too, is John Waller's "While I'm Waiting." There is just so much waiting, waiting, waiting!

A said...

You are a very important part of my prayer list! I love how you are trusting God and taking this one day at a time :) I pray that you'll have peace as you wait for the u/s on Thursday!!

Sunny said...

So excited WITH you for your u/s tomorrow!!!

Katie said...

Praying for the ultrasound to be wonderful and show a healthy little baby.

I know NOTHING can take away the memory or the fears, but I will also be praying for peace for you in the next hours.

Stacy said...

I will be praying all morning for your appt - for that little heart to be beating incredibly strong...as well as for your nerves going into the ultrasound. May God's presence overwhelm you. Sweet sweet sleep tonight.

Chuck said...

Thank you all for your prayers. I've had several nervous moments over the past couple of days, but just now Stacey and I were sitting here watching TV and suddenly a peace came over me about the appointment tomorrow. I know it's your prayers. So thank you!