It's not easy making decisions about our future when each option is scary and uncertain, but we do it because we have to.
It's not easy putting my life on hold for years and years while I wait for something to happen, but I continue to wait as patiently as I can.
It's not easy listening to baby stories when I got another negative pregnancy test that morning, but I do it politely and don't say a word.
It's not easy hearing my husband talk about how awkward it will be to attend a baby shower for a co-worker, but I've been there more times than I can count (and I feel for him).
It's not easy for us to shop for baby gifts year after year, but we do it because we love our friends and we really are happy for them.
It's not easy getting back in touch with old friends who will wonder why I haven't had children yet, but I do it because I care about keeping in touch.
It's not easy knowing that my husband would be an amazing father and not being able to do a thing about it.
It's not easy to try again when the pain of past losses is still so fresh.
It's not easy to keep praying during times when I wonder if I'm being heard.
And it's not always easy to keep hoping and trusting, but I do it because I know that that my God is faithful.