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Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Amazed

Today was my appointment with the maternal fetal medicine doctor. This was the visit that the melanoma surgeon wanted me to do before we schedule the surgery, just to have the baby checked out and all of my questions answered before we move forward.

It was a great experience from beginning to end. I felt an immediate rapport with this doctor when I spoke with her on the phone last week, and she was just as kind and friendly in person. We had to drive about an hour to get there and we arrived about a half hour early but didn't have to wait long before we were called back to start the ultrasound. I'm still amazed hours later as I sit down to try and put the experience into words. I had a couple of 3D ultrasounds during my pregnancy with Lily and they are always pretty amazing, but I've never had the experience so early on in a pregnancy before. I think that's what was so awesome to us today, to see so much of the miracle of new life in such detail at a little over 9 weeks. It served as a wonderful display of a God who performs miracles and whose timing is always perfect! I've been in awe of Him all afternoon.

My eyes filled with tears as we saw that tiny, perfect baby on the screen. We saw his or her heart beating, and brand new little arm and leg buds. For the first time in this pregnancy we saw the baby moving around, too, which was the next big milestone we were hoping to see at next week's ultrasound. It was a very special moment, and at one point I exclaimed, "Wow!" and Lily echoed the word back in her sweet little voice. :)

After we got a good look at the baby and all of the appropriate measurements were taken (baby is growing "right on target," which is music to our ears), we sat down with the doctor for a while to talk about everything and ask any questions we had. I found out a few days ago that they will not have to test the lymph nodes around the melanoma site, which is great news. The doctor today cleared me to go ahead with the surgery whenever we can get it scheduled. I still have about three weeks to go until the second trimester, so it shouldn't be too much longer before we can get it all taken care of.

I have to honestly say that today is the first day during this pregnancy that I've begun to feel RELIEVED. We still have some relatively small hurdles coming up, but I'm starting to let myself believe that this is going to happen and that it will be okay -- that this baby will survive growing in my body and actually come home to live with us. I'm trusting, believing, and hoping. I saw this quote on a devotional site this week and loved it: "Trust (in God) chooses faith over fear, confidence over cowardice, and power over panic." That's exactly what I want to do!

**I never want anything I post here to cause any additional pain to anyone who is hurting from infertility or miscarriage, which is why I've always refrained from posting ultrasound images, pictures of pregnancy tests, or belly pics on my blog. I want to make a picture from today's appointment available for you to see if you want to, though, so I'll attach it through the following link. It's the image that left me feeling completely overwhelmed -- in a good way -- today: Ultrasound Picture

11 comments:

Noelle said...

I'm just so happy for you. I will be reading along and praying for you! It must be so scary to go through what you're going through, but I must say that your strength and trust in God is evident.

Amy said...

That's awesome, Stacey. I believe ultrasound machines are truly a God-given advancement in technology. What a tremendous wonder to see life growing in the womb! I love the picture of your little one. So thankful that you are feeling some relief. Hugs!

Connie said...

Love Love Love Love Love! Such relief! XOXO

Ro-bear said...

Such awesome news! Thanks for sharing.

Hope in Virginia said...

Wonderful, wonderful, wonderful news. Isn't it amazing that at 9 week - NINE WEEKS - he/she looks like a baby? That is a baby, not a fetus. Not a cluster of cells. A beautiful, perfect baby :)

beth ewing said...

beautiful. can't wait for you to have this melanoma thing over and done with.

Deni said...

That is breath-taking!!! I'm so thrilled for this part of your journey!!

Rebecca said...

What an amazing sight! Congratulations! So glad things are moving in the right direction. Still praying for you, and will be throughout. I hope the surgery goes well and this melanoma is quickly a thing of the past and you can concentrate on enjoying this blessing! Love to you friend!

Emily said...

That is truly an amazing image of your baby - thanks for sharing!

Stacy said...

Happy happy happy and in awe that our gracious God has seen fit to bless you with another healthy baby. So thankful for that! Congratulations my friend!

I Believe in Miracles said...

Wow! That picture is amazing. YEAH for peace of mind and answered prayer!